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Mental health awareness week / Contributions by Iris Guevarra and Amy Marguerite Crerar

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Trigger warning for the context of this post if you are sensitive to topics alluding to mental illnesses.*

Contributions by

Iris Guevarra and Amy Marguerite Crerar.

There may come a time where you will question whether you have made a temporary passing place your permanent residence. When the dark circles under your eyes paint a picture with which you become all too familiar. There comes a time where you will mistake the wasps in your stomach for butterflies; when the buzzing anthem in your mind becomes a little trickier to settle and you feel like giving up the fight. There will be times where you question your sanity and your sanity questions you, times where your fingers will tremble at the mention of sickness because you know of it too well. There may well be nights of wondering where the stars disappear to as you gaze out your window and mornings where the hearts of those you love the most look so different to your own. But friend, believe me when I tell you that you do not have to live in the shadows. You can choose to make a temporary passing place, exactly that. You can acknowledge what is real for you; the wasps and buzzing anthems, and you can choose to fight for a life beyond your perceived limitations. You are human, you will falter, you may fall, but coming from someone who has suffered years of deterioration, please believe me when I say that you have the strength to pick yourself back up again. You have the capacity to become master over your habits, your behaviours and your thoughts because your mind is your instrument and you are not it’s slave. Soak up every inch of goodness that this world has to offer, because although there may be much adversity, suffering and pain, there is a heck of a lot of beauty hidden in the depths.

- By Amy Marguerite Crerar 

Humpty

Iris Guevarra

Humpty dumpty sat on a wall

of a 3-story high psychiatric ward.

She thought about having 

poached eggs for breakfast; 

simmered and stolen from Death himself.

Humpty dumpty sat on a wall

balloon-brain expanded

- too large for her skull.

The pressure built up 

like a screaming kettle,

Begging for Humpty 

to turn the heat off.

Humpty dumpty sat on a wall

as the yolk inside her turned bright yellow.

Death's ready to order the sunny-side-up!

Did she fall off the side?

Or decide to jump over?

Humpty dumpty sat on a wall

with her head cracked open 

on the concrete floor.

Balloon-brain flying,

released from her skull;

splattered ghouls and demons,

freed into the world;

Kettle turned off,

Relief from the pain: 

Rejoice! Rejoice!

Humpty is saved!

Humpty dumpty sat on a wall:

stupid, deluded, invincible.

You're an egg!

You're dead!

You're a scrambled mess!

And no one could put Humpty together again.

Happy Mental Illness awareness week, I thought it was relevant to collaborate with some talented individuals regarding mental illness since it is a personal journey. Iris and Amy are both talented writers and the diversity between the two writing pieces goes to show everyone has their own story to tell regarding mental illness whether it is positive or negative. At the end of the day I think it is so important to communicate and discuss topics around mental health and try and help educate more and more people for further understanding around the subject.